As God’s children we may become bewildered by the circumstances that surround us. This is even more so, when you become spiritually involved in the lives of others. Especially when you pray on their behalf, interceding.
Not long ago, I was left wondering, “What in the world did I do wrong?” I had been seeking to restore a relationship to its rightful place among friends. Because of that my heart began to be personally involved in prayer for them.
It has been tremendously challenging. I felt caught in the middle, bewildered. Sure they use kind words but I sense I am being more misunderstood rather than helping. My heart has been broken and I have begun to feel quite helpless.
My heart being crushed, I wondered how I got to the place of even being involved in their lives. I have been tempted, to wish I had never met them at all, never to have allowed them a place in my heart.
But when my Lord challenges my heart with his abounding grace and love he provides me a quick way of escape as I realize I would not have become the person I am today if it had not been for meeting them.
Truly God’s ways are higher than ours, His way IS perfect. And although there has been much pain in my heart by becoming spiritually involved in their lives through prayer, I would not trade all that has gone on. In my Lord I have grown as an intercessor, in ways that have impacted my life forever.
I have the confidence in my heavenly Father, who is attentively waiting for me to call Him for help. He is ready, if need be, to to send thousands of angels to help me and deliver me from my anguish of heart. But I choose rather to allow my beloved Christ to shine in this earthen vessel, that breaks down in tears, that His mercy flow.
That God in his love would make me a vessel of mercy in someone’s life. Taking the pieces of their broken heart, placing them at His alter, to have Him make them all over again. I have experienced such joy of being used of God in such a way that I desire my life to be continuely poured out in others. Therefore my previous affliction is light for the excellency of Christ.
“For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory; While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal.” 2 Cor 4:17,18
Nobody hears my cry
But my Lord and I.
Oh how cruel people complain!
Breaking me down, pointing my shame.
As the accuser of the brethren,
In my hurt they relish,
So to my knees I fall,
In my bewilderment I call,
I have no strength anymore,
What is this hurt for?
Lord I sought forgiveness,
But none was given.
And the pain continues on.
I am broken, yielded, surrendered.
And in a still small voice my Lord says,
“This is exactly what the pain is for,
Now, my child that you called on me,
On your behalf I will show myself mighty.
Be still here now, my angels will attend,
Grow your forgiveness and love,
For those that caused you shame.
Tis my Son being formed in you,
Through suffering shine Jesus through.
~Ann Marie Moore (Dec 12, 2014)
I love how I can read God’s word and be encouraged in my time of need. Our beloved Lord does not leave us comfortless and gives us a boldness to take courage in Him,
2 Corinthians 4
6 For God, who commanded the light to shine out of darkness, hath shined in our hearts, to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.
7 But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellency of the power may be of God, and not of us.
8 We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair;
9 Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed;
10 Always bearing about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our body.
11 For we which live are alway delivered unto death for Jesus’ sake, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our mortal flesh.
What a privilege to behold! I have the opportunity to serve these dear ones showing them Christ’s love. Oh to die to self that other may live! That my beloved Lord may live in and through me.