God’s weaving hand, as one dear friend pointed out contains some strands that are black, those that perhaps make us sad, discouraged, defeated or perplexed. Then there are the golden strands which we just absolutely praise God. But as she pointed out both strands are needed to help make the complete picture God is doing. And there are also other strands of various colors reminding us of different circumstances in our life that God is weaving.
I have learned not only to accept the black and golden strands which represent the deepest woes and greatest joys. I have learned to praise God for both.
I was released from the hospital after having colon cancer surgery, of course very excited looking forward to get home to our children. The doctor was getting my paperwork finalized walked back in and said, “I did not want to say this earlier so as not to discourage you but on the thorax CT scan it showed that your thyroid on your right side has a 1 cm nodule that looks hard. You will need to get an ultrasound and biopsy done on it.” The doctor now wants rule out thyroid cancer.
I told the doctor I am aware that I have a multi-nodular goiter that was found while I was in the military. I had all kinds of test done to include a biopsy which came out negative but that was over 20 years ago. I was aware and told that at any given point that could become an issue later in life with nodules turning cancerous.
I will admit it made me cry not because of another cancer possibility but what this is costing the ministry. It means money spent on me other than reaching others. It may mean we don’t go to Puerto. The tears were not bitter just humbling.
I have often thought how God will go at length to get a hold of His child even at the dear cost of allowing others to go to hell. That my friends is heartbreaking if you think of it in light of 2 Chron 7:14 that the condition of our own country is because of God’s people.
I could not help but ask God, “Is there something in me?” I don’t want anything in me to stand between me and my beloved Savior or His precious love to see souls saved.
My Lord’s response was this, “You want revival? Then there is price.”
I know so many of you dear folks are praying for my health but can this black strand be inter-weaved with a golden strand to make a beautiful picture?
God’s way are higher than ours. Our Lord has a purpose bigger than I can grasp. But it is so sweet when Bruce and I came home to be showered with gifts by our children to include Sarah who remained in Fargo. We are so blessed.
But may I share this audio testimony from my daughter Rachel that she told me when we came home? Tell me my dear beloved believer is it worth the price to suffer with cancer or any other illness or trial when our Lord has a higher purpose?
May your hearts be blessed, to GOD be ALL the GLORY.
“According to my earnest expectation and my hope, that in nothing I shall be ashamed, but that with all boldness, as always, so now also Christ shall be magnified in my body, whether it be by life, or by death.” Phil 1:20
Living by the Faith (Gal 2:20), Ann Marie Moore, (Heb 4:12)
“And of some have compassion, making a difference:” Jude v.22
My passion, to leave the impression of Christ in the lives of others.